So I haven't written on here for ages, but today I really felt like I needed to start writing on here again.Its fun to take a look at my thought process in different time periods of my life. Also, I have the worst memory in the world, so I need write these things down.
A memory that I felt like writing about is when I got a D on a report card. I'm pretty sure it was in 5th grade. Or it could potentially be in 4th grade. Whatever, it's like the same. It was my health class. We had to do experiments every so often throughout the year. So apparently, I thought we were to turn in our worksheets at the end of the year. I had no idea we had to turn it in the same day we did the experiment. I don't know why I thought that because I would turn in the rest of my assignments on time. I remember when my teacher chastized me for not knowing that it was supposed to be turned in the same day. She said that she wouldn't accept my assignments. I remember my heart dropping and feeling the most anxiety. And then I saw my report card and I was so upset at myself.
I guess I'm writing about this experience because I feel like I went through a similar experience in college. It's definitely not as extreme as when I was a 5th grader, but I was falling behind on everything because I wasn't in my right mind. I'm referring to the first two weeks of the Winter 2016 semester. I missed the first day of ECON382 because I thought it was at 9 a.m. I thought it was at that time because that's when I originally had my Chinese class. In my ECON458 class, I missed my first online quiz. In my POLI470 class, I totally blanked on the first two week's reading responses. I felt like I was going senile. But in reality, I was assuming. I noticed that whenever I assume, nothing goes right. I feel like I should've learned my lesson, but I feel like I relapse quite often. Maybe its my pride and thinking I know everything, even though I don't. I really need to humble myself.
After writing this blog, I realized that "assuming" is one of my bigger weaknesses. I really discover things about myself when I blog haha! I should keep this up!
